These are the moments....

I have such a wonderful little girl and boy... Although Jackson can't communicate yet like Addison, it is such a joy to just watch him daily... Just today as Addison touched my cheek and said, "I love you, Mama" I thought, this is what life is about... These are the moments that make our lives complete. It is the small moments in life... not the big ones that define us. It is our spouse and a loving touch from them, or the things our children say and in Jackson's case, do. It is our friends, and family. It is the daily lives that we lead that are so precious.

The four of us were riding down the road on Saturday listening to a JoJo's Circus CD that Livvy gave Addison and we had the windows down and it turned up. Out of the blue Addison says, "I happy my DaddyMama" (that is her name for both of us when she is too lazy to say Mommy and Daddy). I thought I might just pass out with joy - they pick up on the neatest things and a moment like that makes me feel complete and as if all of the not so great moments in life are worth it..... I hope my sweet peanut will always tell her DaddyMama that she is happy.......

Happiness

There is so much happiness in my life right now that sometimes I get overwhelmed. There have been so many periods were I would not allow myself to be happy and only looked at what was wrong. There have been periods of life where I didn't act like a very nice person and let other people down. But this past year has taught me so much about living in the moment and in the day. I made a vow to stop being so unhappy and live each moment where I could lay my head down at night happy with who I was and my life. And I am.... I get to sleep next to the most wonderful man I know, and know in my heart that he and I daily work at a good marriage. I enjoy the work I do, and the time it allows me to be a mother and wife. I was able to lose 60lbs since my last beautiful child was born with determination and hard work.... And most of all, I don't wake up full of regret or remorse for past sins. I wake up feeling excited about the new day ahead. I think I realized that life is so short and I might not have another "today". I want to be as that song says, "Never let go a chance to forgive.... Never hold any regrets...." God has graced me with so many wonderful things and I have stopped taking them for granted! I have finally become truly, truly happy.........